Images

When I went to sleep this morning, two persons image came into my mind. One was Cheryl, the other, I won't elaborate. I then remember, that someone had told me that, if I closed my eyes, the images of the people that came into my mind are those that I loved.

I don't deny that Cheryl is always on my mind, but the other one? I'm beginning to doubt myself. Its not as if we had know each other for long, but somehow I think we do connect. I know that Cheryl has been doing things behind my back to get us together, but this is not the way things should be. And I'm too slow to detect it.

I got half a mind not to cross the mine field. As time goes by, I realised that maybe I do still need a bit more time before I make up my mind. I have been taking care people all the time and I'm tired of it. I'm looking for people to take care of me this time round. But judging from it, I don't think its highly possible.

Although a lot of my friends says that age is not a matter when looking for a soul mate, but maturity still counts... My other half can be very young or older than me. But it's the maturity level that I'm looking for. I'm not saying she ain't having it. She does, but maybe not the level that I'm looking for...

My friend told me that sometimes, when you see someone you like or can connect to, I shouldn't wait and should go for it straight away, regardless of circumstances. But, also never to regret if things don't work out. I told her that I don't like surface relationships. If I want to go into a relationship, I always give 101%, never less and I expect the other party to do that too.

I know I'm not all that fantastic, with all the bells and whistles. I'm not looking for someone like that too... It's not material comfort I'm looking for. It's companionship. If she can do that, I'm willing to do anything for her. But how many of them can overlook this barrier of materialistic needs and focus on the soul?

Am I demanding for too much while I'm giving so much?